TOWARDS

I remember reading a self help book of sorts in maybe 2004. My world reeling from opening a business and watching it implode almost immediately. I did what most people do. I blamed myself for the failure one hundred percent. I analyzed and dug into what was wrong with me. Where could I improve?  I tried to change the wiring. The wires, held their path.

I remember reading a book. A self help book. It was earth shattering and eye opening. How could I not have seen? I finished it and thought, "I'm on my way! I see now."  Yet, there was a tug. I felt like there was a step missing. I needed to be told the rest. Which way? What should I do? I wanted to be guided. I wanted someone to tell me what to do.

We all do.

What I longed for was a step by step approach. Do this. Then that. Then success!  Then fulfillment.

Fulfillment.

What I've learned is that there is no step by step. Only steps. We take them straight and sometimes the stones are leading back and sideways and around. That looking for a clean plan with a start, middle, and end is a fools game. It doesn't work that way, or if it does, we  still end up with a hole. A lack. Or ar the least. I do.

Maybe it's because I'm always looking for more. Not more in a tangible, or measurable. More of that thing. That pull in the chest that makes us tingle. Sometimes like a lightning strike, sometimes like just a flutter.

Fulfillment.

I quit reading self help books mostly. As there's no one way and most of them say the same things. That too. Became exhausting.

What matters isn't the order of the steps. It's that we are taking them. Forward, or rather, towards. Something. Anything.

Every step.

Towards.

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